2025-11-07

start posting. choose a platform. start on one. start on another. start on one more. move to another. leave it, move back to the first. post over there. post on that one. remember this other! build your internet world. on and on. the content creation loop ruled by an algorithm continues.

i've had an epiphany! epiphany? maybe it's not as grand as that. but alas the word feels right enough. so we'll go with it. epiphany:

i want to write. we know this. and i want to share and i want to create AND im tired of being bogged down by choosing what belongs on what paltform instead of the other. too many options, too many places. could i just focus on the art if i made it all go in one place instead? do i have to be spending so much time and effort thinking about where something should live that i spend less time actually creating the thing that wants to live there?

i think a lot of people in the journaling community can probably understand that plight. especially as we draw closer to the new year and choices need to be made. spending so much time focusing on what journal or what planner that you lose the time to actually write and create within its pages.

but please remember: the presence of us is what imbues an object with magic. without our presence on the page, what is there? just a material item that could belong to anyone. I want to hold an item and know it's mine, not because of material possession, but in the way it's filled with my love- in the way it could only be mine the same way my fingerprint can't be someone else's.

patreon is updating/revamping/improving their newsletter formatting and interface. i have wanted an alternative to substack for awhile, moved to buttondown, moved back to substack because i cannot afford a monthly fee at this moment. but i have an ecosystem already built on patreon. why not take advantage of that? that way, when i say: join my newsletter... well, there's only the one link. i feel it's less confusing to others too?

maybe if i spend less time thinking about where to post something, i can spend more time actually creating what i want to post in the first place. too many platforms. this is one of the issues. i've accepted it, finally. i've been afraid to make a choice for fear it'll be the wrong one but the truth is that there can't be a wrong choice. because even if something doesn't fit or doesn't go as planned, the pivot is right there. the alternate, just a switch away. i moved across the country on a whim knowing I could just go back if it didn't work.

some things are only as life-shattering and life-altering as we make them.

there isnt any judgement in the tumultuousness of the experience. i only know what doesnt feel right, and that something is missing for me, because i've tried it. i only think that something else will work because ive learned it through action. the process is what's allowed me to get to this point.

please remember: the frustration and the tension inform us as much as the flow and the excitement does. in my case, it's platform. in your case, the tension of choice may be coming from something else. do not let the fear of picking incorrectly stop you. momentum only comes from action.

and, as usual, the point of me sharing my inner workings is to show you the process. i am learning alongside you. i don't have all the answers. i haven't even made a choice yet.

in purpose and in practice,
ella nym